I had a tough reality check this weekend: I miss my hair.
For the first time in months, I got dressed up and headed out for dinner and drinks in downtown Indianapolis with a group of friends. Most of the time I wear a baseball hat or a comfy slouch cap since I'm not comfortable being out in public without a hat. But for "special occasions" I wear this fedora:
|Here I am with a few of my beautiful friends (sorry guys, they're all taken)|
All night I found myself admiring all my girl friends and their long beautiful hair, full eyebrows, and luscious eye lashes (all things I no longer have) - and their ability to leave the house without a hat. My hair loss had never really bothered me until then. I think the reason it hit me so hard that night is because my hair isn't really growing back in yet. I know it will, but guess I didn't think it would take this long (my darn optimism got me again!). Plus I'm sick of hats.
I shed one or two tears when I got home that night and decided I needed to do something about it. I haven't decided yet what that "something"is… In all honesty, I may just end up shaving my head and starting from scratch. But I'm considering a short pixie style hair cut. Hey, Jennifer Lawrence did it and she doesn't even have cancer!
|One of my radiation technicians told me I look like her, so maybe I'll try to look even more like her!|
Here are a few shots of how my hair looks now:
|After shower (yes, I'm in my bath robe)|
|I found this mole on my head - I named it Chuck and |
consider it good luck :)
|From the front (after spending about 10 minutes trying to get it to look this "good")|
What's weird is I think it actually looks better in pictures than in real life. Anyway, I'm hoping to get in with my hairstylist soon and see what she recommends. I'm 99% certain I will make some sort of change very soon. I think that if I leave it the way it is, it'll only get more awkward looking as the bald spots fill in. If I leave it alone, I'm afraid it will be several months before it's "filled in" and I'm comfortable going in public without a head covering of some sort. And I'm impatient.
I'm taking suggestions, so if you have a hair style idea that might work, please share! And of course you'll all be the first to see what I end up doing.